Listen to my cry for help, my King and my God, for I pray to no one but you. - Psalm 5:2
I get it. I understand that we all want to feel strong. We feel the need to remind each other that we can get through this. We honor strength and power in this day and age.
But I just want to stand and say, “I am not a survivor. I am a victim.”
There is no way on earth that I can continue to do this day after day.
I remember when I was young, watching old cartoons that always seemed to feature a helpless woman tied up and placed on the train tracks. She always cried, “Help me, oh, help me” in a hideously whiny voice.
Do you want to know a secret? I am that woman.
Pain has me all tied up in knots I didn't even know were possible. Questions have me flat on my back, shouting at the sky. Fear rumbles my foundation until I can feel it in my teeth. The train is coming.
And I am helpless to escape.
Do you know why I'm so willing to admit this? Because I have a hero. And I need Him. I'm so in love with Him, I just might be willing to tie my own self up and go looking for the nearest railroad tracks, just to have the chance to glimpse Him racing to the scene.
And so I refuse to claim that I'm a survivor, instead of a victim. I will not shout about being a warrior, or fighting like a girl. Because left to my own devices, leaning on my own strength, I am lost. That train will obliterate me.
We have a hero. He will save the day... every day. From right inside of each of us.
For he has rescued us from the dominion of darkness and brought us into the kingdom of the Son he loves, in whom we have redemption, the forgiveness of sins. - Colossians 1:13-14
I'm taking off the boxing gloves. Climbing out of the ring. Putting on my whiniest voice and crying out from my bondage.
Help me, oh, help me!
Dear Lord, come into my life, do Your work in me. Rescue me, Father. I am much too weak and lost to go on alone. In Jesus' Name, Amen...
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