But as for me, I will watch expectantly for the Lord; I will wait for the God of my salvation. My God will hear me. – Micah 7:7
Oh, friends lately I’ve been feeling such anticipation. I think some of it has to do with the fact that we’ve just moved and have a new beginning. But the greater part of it feels like it’s coming from a peaceful, expectant place inside… maybe the Holy Spirit?
So I’d say I’m about 75% hopeful and expectant, and about 25% cringing. Do you know what I mean?
When you deal with the constant discouragement of disability, you learn to tamper your hope. When you go through letdown after letdown, you begin to raise your expectations a little…. lower.
Maybe it’s just me.
I’m constantly waiting for the other shoe to drop. I mean, a good day is surely a fluke, right? Or some shot of adrenaline that’s bound to wear off before I can begin to enjoy it. I surely don’t ever dare to count on it. No, never.
The truth is I’m a big chicken. I don’t dare to hope 100% anymore, because I’ve been let down too many times. Too many new diagnoses, too much doubt and disdain from those who don’t understand, too much hard and cold and dark.
It’s a shame when we’re only comfortable in those situations. It’s sad that understanding people make us want to cry and cling to them, they are such a wonder and a blessing. It’s horrible when a believing doctor literally is one in a thousand. It’s ridiculous that hard and cold and dark are what we wrap ourselves in because they are familiar. Soft makes me distrustful. Warm makes me wary. Light causes me to shield my eyes.
It shouldn’t be this way.
He is the God of my salvation. Yours, too. He will hear us. He does.
So as for me, I will watch expectantly for the Lord. No more cringing. I won’t let the harsh realities of life dull my hope anymore. I’m coming out of the shadows and getting out the light to better recognize my blessings.
Anticipation… something is coming. And it’s going to be something wonderful.
Dear God, nudge me when You catch me bracing for the blow. I want to live free in Your Hope. In Jesus’ Name, Amen…
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May God Bless You,
Shelly
Shelly – such true feelings that many of us know from struggling with them ourselves. I can turn and hope in the Lord when all is dire, but to hope in the times that could be better – and there are those times – does often feel like I am waiting for the “other shoe” to drop.
How wonderful it would be to get to a place where my thoughts go to “putting on a new shoe” and lacing it up with hope!
” I won’t let the harsh realities of life dull my hope anymore.” Amen.
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Ooooh! Yes, Shelly!! My word for 2015 is “Expectancy”! So, I’m right there with you! What a joy it is to expect great things from our great God!! Keep hoping BIG!!
Blessings & love, Joan
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Dearest Shelly, I’m just so touched by this beautiful message today. Its so funny, I was just kinda talking to God today, you know, ” thanks for helping me through all the wedding etc..” But now back to reality….. ”
Your words today help me to refocus, yes I may now have to recoup, but God did supply all that I needed, He granted time, energy, strength, hope, love! And at the end, it is worth all the rest needed now. And I can look back in the future, knowing, He is faithful, true, complete. He will always be there when I need Him. Even if my body doesn’t always cooperate, God is still with me.
Thank you friend for your hopefulness you inspire! Love you, Di
Shelly…My heart danced for JOY reading this post !
Expectant anticipation is the atmosphere for miracles…….
I KNOW that i KNOW that I KNOW God has good things in store for you because He has told me over and over that you were moving into a place of blessing….watching this space my friend !!